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Name: Lindsey
Country: United States
State: Virginia
Metro: Loudoun County
Birthday: 10/8/1986
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Thursday, June 05, 2008

What I have against...people...

So it's been a while, but I have a couple good stories:

     So during the last week of classes and finals week, as projects and papers were being turned in, the content of the days' activities lightened up and gave me a chance to go out on the town of our dear little State College. I ventured to the Saloon with a large crowd of our recently graduated AACF seniors, and proceeded to have a good time with them.

     Now whenever I'm out having a drink or two (or more) with people I know and care about, you could say I sometimes tend to take the attentive role of "mother duck." This is not to say that I do not enjoy myself, but I like to make sure everyone (mostly the girls) is accounted for. During out little outing at the Saloon, I happened to notice some guy hanging around our tables. He was a short, young looking white boy going for the "I don't care what I wear" surfer look. Long, shaggy hair and plaid shorts with some vintage t-shirt to boot. At first I thought he was a classmate of one of the other girls in our party, but after a while we all realized that no one knew who he was.

Therefore, we determined: Another drunk Penn State boy trying to hit on the Asian girls.

Granted, I think most of us are used to this by now. Most of us young, Asian girls in our prime. This concept of "yellow fever." I've experienced it in guys from many types of ethnic backgrounds (white, black, Middle Eastern, etc.). The plain truth is, some guys just have certain preferences. We all do when it comes to the opposite sex (short, tall, blue eyes, dark hair, personality, whatever). Nothing wrong with that if it does not reach beyond a certain extent, right?

Going back to my story, I was getting antsy to move to a different location, since I had planned earlier in the night to meet up with some other friends at another bar or two. It was later in the night, and I wanted to get moving. I accompanied Lynn and Ching to the bathroom, since I figured I should go before walking the next distance and facing eternal lines in another dirty bar. On the way to the restroom, we met an Australian and faced the graffiti from countless bar tours. On the way back to the tables, Ching was unfortunately intercepted and cornered by the random surfer boy mentioned above.

Now, Ching, being the sweet, polite, too-nice-to-say-no girl that she is, was stuck. I, on the other hand, was definitely in a let’s-get-down-to-business kind of mood, and didn’t feel like explaining myself to a drunk boy going nowhere fast. Therefore, I grabbed Ching’s hand and somewhat forcefully pulled her away from surfer boy, not even giving him a backward glance. As we walked away, Ching sighed with relief, and exclaimed “thank you!” as we headed back to our tables next to the door.

But our group, being a larger party full of somewhat indecisive people, took a while to get ready to leave. “Like herding cats” as my mom likes to say. So while I waited for everyone to gather their belongings and move towards the exit, surfer boy found me and tapped me on the shoulder, his drunk breath curling my nose and his swaying body causing me to inch away, until he said to me:

“So what do you have against white people?”

I balked. I was almost speechless.

If y’all didn’t know by now, my exterior, though Asian (Korean, yellow, insert slang here), is fairly deceptive. I was adopted by homegrown white Americans, hailing from Ireland and Norway. Never did I experience being in a group of people where the Asians made up the majority in a social setting, until I arrived at college. Call me a “twinkie” (yellow on the outside, white on the inside), call me whatever. I know where I’m “from” and how I was raised are two different cultural experiences. And I definitely know I have nothing against white people (LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD!).

So I look at surf boy, and fortunately for him, I am in a great mood, and don’t punch his lights out or kick him across the room (using my stellar Tae Kwon Do skills, since I happen to be an Asian who knows martial arts, look at me, a walking stereotype). Instead I calmly tell him that he shouldn’t assume things or put words in my mouth and what in the world about what I did told him that I didn’t like white people. The boy then tries to say something to the extent of “well, I got the feeling…” in which I again try to explain that he’s making assumptions, and that I had a boyfriend of almost 3 years who was white, and for some reason I don’t even mention that my parents are white.

What an ignorant dumbass. I have nothing against white people. But I DO have something against drunk members of the male sex who try to hit on girls who do NOT want to be hit on.

The End? Probably not. But more stories to come later. I should probably get back to work!


Tuesday, April 01, 2008

...so GUESS where I'm going THIS SUMMER...

 대한민국 AKA The Land of Morning Calm AKA The Republic of Korea AKA South Korea.

- 6 Weeks, from the end of June to the beginning of August.
- Education Abroad at its finest, with intensive language courses and well as two others (shooting for Korean Literature and Korean Politics) and cultural field trips all over the place.


...any traveling tips?


Friday, February 15, 2008

Post Valentine’s Day Haiku:


There aren’t enough words

To express my frustration

On Valentine’s Day

 

The stupidest commercial

Scam of all the ages past

 

Professions of Love

That never mean what you want them to mean

-What do you want anyway?

 

Candy hearts and chocolate kisses

Show me your wealth and lack of creativity

 

Roses only last so long

The thorny business of a dozen problems

Stick into my heart much longer

 

Why do you continue to play this game - 

And me a pawn, for all of love’s amusement

 

I tried to find my Muse.

Discovering Discord instead

I told her to shut up


She reminded me of everything

I did not want to be


***


“We need to talk.”

The fatal words that STOP

Grown men’s hearts

 

The question of whether we were “facebook official” or not

Was the last straw that broke the camel’s back

 

I just lied in that last haiku

But I wanted it to be ridiculous

- I’ve heard when camels spit - it smells

 

His words stank of insincerity

Time to take out the Garbage

 

I hate it that I can’t tell whether you’re lying or not anymore.

Sometimes I think you lie on purpose, just to see

if I can figure it out

 

a Puzzle with a thousand pieces

and I haven’t even found the border

 

loving Love

is only as hard as taking that first step

crossing the line

 

He probably went too far

Playing games out of his league

Breaking hearts and rules

 

Everyone knows the Name of the Game

But no one lets on about the big Secret

 

Listening to songs

Written by men about girls

How do I get a guy to write a song about me?

 

I lose sleep, writing about Love

Sometimes it’s a Wasteland out there…

 

I’m trying to finish

This set for the page, But –

I have class in ten minutes

 

Why would they ever schedule a quiz right after an exam?

Academic stupidity.

 

So why are we here?

To learn, and live, and above all things

To Love.



**(Totally cheesy end I know, I'll fix it later, I apologize for that)**

 

 

 

 

 


Friday, February 08, 2008

Lists

Top 10 Frustrating things of Thursday (not in order):
  1. People who make loud mouth noises (breathing, the smacking of lips as they eat in a very grotesque way)
  2. Blow-drying my hair twice
  3. The stupidity of boys
  4. The fact that I am exhausted and can't stay awake when important people speak during a once in a lifetime event
  5. Unexpected things that come up with no warnings
  6. Me not being assertive when I definitely know the answers
  7. Not having enough time in the day with way too much to do
  8. Not being able to work out my arms, or kick things (or people)
  9. No sleep
  10. Unorganization
Top 10 Redeeming things of Thursday (not in order):
  1. First class on Friday where an essay was due being CANCELED!
  2. Unexpected people stepping up when needed
  3. Harmonization of the voice
  4. Getting to work out at least a little bit
  5. Realizing the vocab quiz is only 26 words
  6. Brownies
  7. It's almost the weekend
  8. Hearing from a friend in Paris
  9. My Dad calling me this morning
  10. Motivation



Thursday, January 17, 2008

Currently Listening
In Between Dreams
By Jack Johnson
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analysis of a dream

      So my friend and I were having lunch a few days ago, when we got on the subject of dreams. She retold a recent one she'd had the other night, about a guy she currently has interest in. Now for me, personally, my dreams usually make no sense at all, but I did have an interest in dream analysis way back in middle school. So I listened to my friend's dream, let's call her Girl A ("a" is for "awesome"), and her crush, Boy B ("b" is for "boy"):

     Girl A and Boy B are hanging out in the beginning of the dream. Their chemistry is obvious between the both of them, and they're talking and flirting in an apartment kitchen. They're doing some sort of activity together, maybe cooking or making something, when they come dangerously close to kissing. It's one of those moments where they brush close to one another, just inches away, where they can feel each other's body heat. Their faces linger, necks craned to opposite sides, lips slightly parted...

     Yet something happens in the next room that causes them both to pull away. So close, yet so far, right?

     Girl A finds she has to use the restroom and leaves the kitchen while Boy B goes somewhere else. Girl A is sitting on the commode, with some very unpleasant after effects of dinner, when suddenly there's a banging on the door. Alarmed and not in her best state, Girl A opens the door without flushing, thinking it's an absolute emergency. Girl A finds a hysterical younger girl, (let's call her Girl C..."c" is for "crazy"). Girl C turns out to be the ever present "on-again-off-again" girlfriend of Boy C (who is also predominant in real life and not just the dream). Girl C barges into the bathroom, hyperventilating and distressed, interrogating Girl A if she is "seeing" Boy B or not. Girl A is extremely embarrassed about her cornered position in the smelly bathroom, and in a desperate effort to escape, assures Girl C that she is NOT seeing Boy B, since that's all Girl C seems to care about.

     So that's it.

My analysis and moral of the story: If you're interested in anyone with one of those classic "on-again-off-again" significant others, you're just in a shitty situation.

     The. End.  

    



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